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Mystery Dan??

I got a random comment on one of my posts from "dan" about my looks. Not that is a bad thing, but I do not know of this "dan". I have tried to find him, but the sneaky "dan" made it where I can not see his blog. I do not take offense to the comment "dan" left, but I wish it was worded differently. Also, not knowing who this "dan" is, can be and is a little disturbing. I was hoping that maybe one of you lovely followers of mine would know something of this "dan". The only thing that comes to my mind would be my crazy stalking ex-boyfriend. I really hope it isn't him. If any one knows of this "dan" or has him as a follower, has had a comment left on your blog by "dan", or is following his blog could you please let me know? I would greatly appreciate your help.

**I meant to leave his name as "dan" with a lower case D, because that is the way it appears in my comments**

I want to live my life without fear --

Things are starting to get me to the point of being scared, stressed, and worried. We broke up that is it, you and I are over and have been since the beginning of November. If I really meant that much to you then you would have waited for me or tried harder to get me back. No, instead you get a girlfriend 3 days later and less than two months of dating you decided to ask her to marry you.

Some how though you can't seem to drop me from you life. You feel the need to still try and figure out what I am doing in my daily life without you! When you fly home for Christmas you tell me when you land in Dallas that you are going to text me when you are headed to my house, because you know I don't want to see you and I want to be able to leave the house. No, though you use it to your advantage and don't tell me. The whole break was good for me until the last 3 days you decide to show up at my house without warning, meaning I am stuck here. Little did you know I broke down crying in my room when my mom told me you were here. Out of common decency you could have told me you were coming. Oh and left your "fiance" at home where she belongs, not at my house.

Now that your back at base everything is back to normal somewhat. I can go on about my life without having to worry about you just stopping by my house. Nope, I am wrong. You continue to text me about that stupid iPod that is supposedly "yours". I bet you liked my attitude toward you "f" the iPod "f" my shirt and "f" you. That still stands I don't want anything to do with you. I wish you would say and do the same. You can't and won't though, you still feel the need to know who I am talking to and who I am trying to pursue a relationship with.

You want to know what I am doing and who with still. I have blocked you from my facebooks, e-mail, and all instant messengers. I have blocked your family, friends, and anyone that has a connection between me and you. I deleted all the mutual friends between us on my military friends facebook. I know someone some where is telling you what my statuses say. So, now I have to watch what I post on there. Just another way for you to pry into my life.

You are really beginning to scare me. It is stressing me out and you know it. You know what all this is doing to me and I do not appreciate it. I don't know why you get to me the way you do, but it is worrying me. I don't like these feelings you give me, I can't seem to escape you no matter what I do. Please just leave me alone. I would really like to live my life without the fear you getting into my life.

ABC's of Military Spouse

For all my followers that are a Military spouse.

A - Always Faithful. This one is obvious and also a big part of Marine culture. Marines are always faithful to their country and their Corps as they fight for it. We are always faithful to our country and our Corps by standing behind them, supporting them in all they do and of course remaining Always Faithful to them.
B - Bitchy. I’m not going to lie… I know we get bitchy. Being a woman, surrounded by other woman, all sexually deprived, PMSing, missing the love of our lives and having to do everything alone..its hard NOT to be bitchy. People will ask dumb questions or say rude things and if they catch you on one of those bitchy days..oh boy.
C - Crazy. Yes, we are all insane. I’ve been running a support site of about 5,000 Marine girls and I can say that all 5,000 of us are insane. We can say ‘Its only been a month since I’ve seen him’ and make perfect sense… but if you think about it, thats CRAZY! ONLY a month away from the love of your life? To any other person we are insane, and deep down we all are. But we are also insanely in love and for us, that makes this all the most normal thing we know.
D - Determined. This is probably the strongest quality that Marine girls have. We are determined to make it through 7 months of a deployment. When they extend the deployment a few months we are determined not to let it get us down. When we find ourselves with a group of friends who all have their significant others, and we are alone, we are determined to still have a good time. When our FRO isn’t giving us the information we want or need, we are determined to still find that information. When we find out we must move across country with 2 kids and no husband, we are determined to have a beautiful house by the end of the week. When we have to transfer schools we are determined to do so and still maintain a high GPA. I have yet to meet one Marine girl who is not determined to make it to their end goal.
E - Excited. It will happen. Boot camp, training, deployment, any long separation…it will come to an end. And the days leading up to that will be the most excruciating days of your life. When my husband returned from deployment, every day that got closer to the date he would come home my stomach would hurt more. By the time the day rolled around I could barely eat and I thought I was going to throw up. My reasoning behind this was my butterflies were on crack and going so fast that it was making me nauseous. I was in a state of shock waiting around all day for the time to come [which of course was delayed more then once]. By the time the buses rolled up, I almost threw up. When they got off the bus me and the amazing women around me all burst into involuntary tears. I know they felt the way I did, with all that built up emotion just releasing.
F - Flexible. Semper Gumby. Always Flexible. One of the most important things that a Marine wife must master. Since my husband went to boot camp 3 weeks earlier then expected, I have learned that NOTHING ever goes the way it is supposed to the first time. The big green weenie will change its mind 800 times before it settles on something and then will likely change it again. You will have to get out of the mindset of trying to plan and into doing things last minute. And its not easy, I still want to plan everything I can as soon as possible, but unfortunately thats usually about the day or hour before.
G - Graceful. Ever seen a duck swimming on water? They are completely calm and graceful on top of the water but if you looked closer you would see their feet underneath them going frantically a million miles an hour. I see this image a lot with Military wives. On the surface it appears everything is under control. But if you take another look they are acting as both a wife and a husband and often a mother and a father. They have to handle everything usually far away from their home and comfort zone all alone. True, sometimes they will break down but most often they put on their brave face to take on the world.
H - Hairy. Haha yes, I had to say it. When its winter and my husband is away you don’t want to go anywhere near my legs. I only got one use out of a brand new razor when it finally turned summer after 6 months of deployment. And I know I am not the only one ! Rock your hairy legs girls :]
I - Incredible. So many people know what a unique challenge we have as military wives and I have heard such nice things about what we do every day. And its all true, we have a very unique life and unique challenges and the way we get through it all makes each and every one of us incredible.
J - Jealous. I admit I am guilty of this one. I am jealous of my husbands REAL wife…the Marines. That bitch takes up all of his time and just when I think we might get a special moment, she decides she has something better to do. And yes, I am insanely jealous of her and all the time she gets to spend with the love of my life. And its not fair, its not like she loves him half as much as I do, but does that matter? Of course not…bitch.
K - Kind. This is one of my favorite qualities of military girls. If someone you have only barely met online needs help moving, they will be right there to help you. A girl you have met twice will show up at your doorstep you were having a bad night and just really need some Ben and Jerry’s and some cocktails and cry with you. You can meet someone new at a homecoming and have them take pictures for you and later watch your baby. When your husband is deployed and there is a huge spider in your bathtub, just walk next door and I guarantee that your new neighbor will help you kill it, even if it involves throwing heels at it for an hour giggling because you keep missing, then jump and celebrate with you when you finally kill it, then let you sleep over because now you can’t find where it went.
L - Lonely. I was going to keep this all light and positive but I can’t ignore the fact that sometimes we WILL get lonely. Some days all the friends and laughter in the world wont shake the fact that your BEST friend and favorite person is miles away and has been for months and will be for a few more months. When this happens, I just have to say stay home, take a bubble bath or lay down in bed and cry. You will feel better in the morning and you will feel better then trying to force yourself to go out. However, I hope that you don’t do it too often either ! I have found that staying busy will keep you from even getting that beginning feeling of a bad, lonely night.
M - Manly. I already said it once, but I am repeating it. Military wives have to be both a man and a woman and they have to master it. I never thought I would know how to change my tires and oil, change my super high light bulbs, assemble a fence and also assemble all of our new furniture. But situations arose and I have had to learn how to do all of these things. When there are family events I have to act as both of us. I don’t have any children but when I do I will also have to act as both the mother and the father. As military wifes, we have to learn to be manly to survive.
N - Negative. Another one I wish wasn’t true but it is! I have definitely had my negative moments. Mostly they come when we might have some really good news coming for us. I always have to remember my past experiences and my negativity comes out. Lately we have been hearing we might PCS…my negativity can’t help but come out and I am having a hard time getting excited about it, and I probably wont be able to until we are all moved in and there for a month. But sometimes my negativity has saved me, like when he was coming home from deployment 2 weeks early. I told him yeah right and I didn’t believe it and guess what, I was right.
O - Optimistic. Even though we have negative thoughts, I know we definitely can be optimistic as well. We are optimistic that although we have had 2 days notice to move we will get it all packed, in a truck and find a beautiful house within our budget and keep the family safe and happy on our way. We are optimistic that we will get a call once a week and when we don’t we remember that no news is good news. We are optimistic that our care packages will arrive and nothing will break or rot and we are optimistic that our husbands will step off that bus and our relationships will be just as good as they were before [and that they haven’t grown a molestash]
P - Perfect? Are you the perfect military wife? Do you cry? Are you pessimistic? Do you doubt yourself? Do you listen to rumors? What exactly IS a perfect military wife? I think we all have a different definition of perfect and I think that as long as you are doing what you need to do you are perfect, and even if you let that slip a little in being perfect…well that just makes you normal.
Q - Quick. Why is it important to be quick? It goes along with flexible. When plans change you must be ready to compromise and quickly.
R - Romantic. What is this life all about besides being strong and flexible? The fact that it is all driven by the crazy love we have for our significant others. And when we have a chance to be romantic we will go all out. I have seen some of the best examples of true love come out all over through care packages, hand written letters, poems, songs, surprises, even Facebook statuses…some of the most classic examples of love and romance that I think a lot of people have forgotten about. I have heard of people re-living certain holidays when they have a chance and making it even better then before. A lot of us get to have 2 weddings, one for just us and one for family. The distance and the stress makes us realize what is truly important in the world.
S - Stress. No denying it - this life is STRESSFUL. And us living it are professionals at managing it, although it takes some time to figure it all out. I had a horrible time with all the stress until I found yoga and writing and started the site and getting it all out and meeting people who understand what I am going through has been the best stress relievers I have found. That and chocolate….
T - Tough. Marine wifes are some of the strongest people I know. The get through so much more then the average person could imagine. They are tough minded, tough hearted and just tough… End of story.
U - Unique. Every single story I have heard from military wifes is unique and because of that them as a person is also unique. No 2 stories, even if the 2 wives went through the EXACT same thing are the same. Unfortunately that also makes it very hard to figure out what you are in for.
V - Valuable. All of you ask your significant others how valuable you are to them. I guarantee you will hear some very nice things. If it was on a scale from 1-10 I bet you would get a 15. They have a tough exterior but hopefully you have all gotten that moment as I have where they break down and spill their hearts to you and let you know just how special you are to them. It will make you feel amazing, I promise.
W - Wonderful! There is no doubt about it… you are wonderful! Your husband is wonderful. Your love is wonderful. You standing behind your man is wonderful. Even when you break down it is wonderful…because it shows you are human and how in love you are. And on your worst day…just remember how wonderful you are. <3
X - Xtremely sleepy [I know I cheated with the X]…but I had to throw this in somewhere because it is such a big part of our little Marine wife culture. You can spot a Marine wife going through a deployment almost a mile away because they always are sleep deprived [[and hairy]]. Waiting up all night for phone calls or hopefully getting phone calls. It takes a toll on a person being on 2 time zones at once!
Y - Young. The majority of us are very young and in American culture might often get looked down upon for being married so young. But then you move to base and you are totally normal for being married so young, and often will find you are older then many girls around you. Its definitely different especially if you were raised like me with completely opposite ideas of when you get married…and it was very hard for me to tell my family I would be getting married so young. But in the end, thats normal for the military and in 20 years they will eat their words.
Z - Zest. May we always keep our marriages spicy and exciting. Luckily it shouldn’t be too hard for us to do because we are lucky enough to have 20 first kisses and first times and new things to talk about and learn about each other through our individual travels. I can brag about changing a tire while he tells me about a mission, all the while counting down until we are back in each other’s arms.

Mass chaos

Well, this is certainly different. I haven't blogged in awhile. I am excited to get back into it. Although it won't be all about my relationship, it will be completely different. I can blog about what I want, the things on my mind, things happening in my life, headlines on the news, just anything I want.

Come to think of it, I have a mass chaos of things going on that I am just ready to let out and release everything I have on my mind and in my heart. I know he still looks at my blog and I am kinda worried about that, one of the main reasons I haven't been blogging. I know I know I shouldn't let him hold me back. I can't help it.

So far 2011 hasn't been bad. Well, for something to actually happen I need to do something. Right? I really haven't been doing anything, but Skyping with David, playing Black Ops, and eating food. I did clean house New Year's Eve, and went out and drove around the airport one night. That is all though.

The holidays were hetic, family drama was EVERYWHERE, I couldn't escape it. My sister flew in from Alaska to spend a week with us. That didn't go over so hot. We made the best of it and hung out together. Her and I together can tough through anything.

OK well I know this post is all over the place, so I am just going to stop writing and let things settle down and become organized for my blog again.

New Year's Resolutions

We have all heard of a New Year's Resolution. In case you haven't I will give you a quick background.

New Year's Eve has always been a time for looking back to the past, and more importantly, forward to the coming year. It's a time to reflect on the changes we want (or need) to make and resolve to follow through on those changes.

Now let us be honest here, think back to past years when you made a Resolution for the New Year, do you really remember your resolution? Did you really follow through on it during the whole year? My answer is no, I don't remember my New Year's Resolution. I, also know for a fact that I haven't been able to carry out a resolution for the whole year.

This coming year 2011, wow so weird to say, I have three resolutions. I think that I will be able to follow through on them. I am certainly going to try my hardest. I know one of them is not really a typical resolution, but it is something for me that I want to do and keep up with. The other two are things I really need to work on.

My first resolution is Blog more. That is right I want to blog more, get back in the grove of blogging. I have a big year coming up, between graduating, turning 18, going to college and starting my own life, I want to keep it all in memory. I want to be able to reflect on the days that will soon pass by entirely to fast. I believe that this blog will help do just that.

The second one is more of a resolution, Try to stop putting myself down. I have this real bad habit of putting myself down. No matter how many times some one could reassure me that I was pretty and had good looks, I would look in the mirror and pick myself apart piece by piece. This coming year I am not going to put myself down.

Last but not least, I am going to be true to myself. This is were my life really begins, I need to start living for myself and doing what is best for me. I am not going to hide from my feelings, I won't let anyone influence me or tell me I can't. I have to be true to myself for myself.

I believe in myself that I can and will do those three things through 2011. I wanna know what some of your resolutions are. Leave me a comment let me hear them!

ATTENTION ALL MIL-SPOUSES

PLEASE WATCH THIS VIDEO!!!!!

I want you after the video to tell me that:
That you didn't smile
That you didn't swell up with pride
That you didn't have the urge to scream Hell yes or Amen
That you didn't want to thank him for making that video
That you didn't laugh because it is so true and he is so funny

GAH!

I got in a wreck in my car. Best part about it I rear ended my own mother! Ugh, then my hair came out red! : / Yesterday wasn't my day! More to come on in a later post.

Starting Over --

Here I got starting over from the beginning, I can't act that he was never a part of my life. I just have to move on and carry on like I was before I met him. I will not deny for any one minute that I love him. I won't tell you there isn't a place for him in my heart, because I would be lying. I can't change how I feel about him. I won't say to your face that I am jealous of the girl that is working on stealing his heart. I had to shut him out of my life for the most part. He is no longer on my Facebook or Skype. I don't want to cut him out completely so I didn't block his number even though I have considered it deeply.

I can't let him hold me back forever. I don't plan on letting him control me and him not even know it. Jealously is eating me alive, I guess simply because he has moved on and she is getting more attention than me. I am not afraid to admit it that she is better than me. He took a step up from me and when I called him to ask him he he wanted a relationship with her. The words that just rolled off his tongue, not a problem saying it. The simple "Yes, I do" killed me. That is what pushed me away the most. There are a lot of other factors that pushed me away.

Lazy Monday!!!

Ah, I can feel the routine setting in again. I have my vanilla Dr. Pepper from Sonic and blogging again. My mom made dinner. Techinically she bought part of it. Fried Chicken from Brookshires, chedder broccoli noodles, and little peas. I can say it was a very good dinner, way better than the food that school serves.

Monday, what is there to say about you. The weather is crappy!!! It has rained for the past 2 days, making it so cold. The perfect cuddling weather and I have no one to cuddle with. It is semi-upsetting, but that is quite alright. I have my big brother to watch movies and cuddle with. I love him. He is a whole another post on another day.

I have been tired all day just exhausted. I have no clue why I haven't done anything to make me feel so exhausted. I am beginning to think that it is the weather. That and considering I can't sleep when it is raining at night must be the problem.

School you are driving me to sleep and not pay attention in class. Thus it is making my GPA drop along with my class rank. I need out of the second quartile. I need college to be successful and teachers your making me miserable. It is so hard to apply myself with the teachers make the class boring.

I love my after school Sonic runs with my brother and the occasional Ashley. It brightens my day! I feel so much better to be able to blog. Next blog hopefully will be more interesting!

I feel like a STRANGER --

I have been neglecting this for far too long. I shouldn't neglect my blog at all, it is my only way to get stuff out most the time. I need a new blog make over. My (well used to be mine) Marine broke up. So this can no longer be "The Marine && The Civilian" blog anymore.

Yes, for all you out there who didn't know Eddie and I have broken up. There are many reasons why we broke up, but for now I wish these reasons remain unspoken of. I won't lie, I screwed up in the relationship just as he did. We both have things we need to settle with our own selves before we can maintain a relationship with each other.

I will say in all honesty that a relationship with a man in the service was A LOT harder than I thought it would be. I can say it did make me stronger as a person. I do regret some of the choices I made in the relationhip, but I do not regret the relationship as a whole.

Sometimes I catch myself wishing that I didn't make the choices I made or mistakes I made. I just have to keep reminding myself that everything happens for a reason. I know that I am not ready for the relationhip with him. I just need to grow up. I don't want to look back on my teenage years later in life and regret not acting like a teen.

I only get to live my life once and I am not going to hold myself back. This is all feeling so weird to me right now. I am actually blogging, I am not in a relationship, I am living a teenage life for once. I still love him and I still have a place in my heart for him I always will. Just right now isn't the best time. I am afraid of hurting him worse than I already have. I am sure that I have ruined alot of my future with him, but that is something I am going to have to accept whether I like it or not.

Sometimes I want to start my relationship with him over, but then again I just think to myself that I just need to keep moving and take everything a day at a time. I am constantly reminding myself that if we are meant to be that in the future our paths will cross and we will take it from there.

Gosh I feel like I am rambling on, I know I am! I just don't really have anyone to just talk to so I am just going to carry on. Ok maybe not I am just going to stop, find someone to give my blog a little makeover and start over.

the exboyfriend and exfeinca or how ever you spell it

well were not togather any more and i wish there was something i could do about it but idk if me trying anything will help or not just thout yall would like to know

Its like a Roller Coaster --

Lately with my Marine and I things have been like a roller coaster.
After he asked me to be his wife things got great amazing,
until I started thinking and getting stressed.
I thought long and hard, very long and hard about it.

I do love the him with everything I am.

I loved my life before I met him and even more after I met him.

It has helped me discover more about myself and the inner strength I have.

We have been together for 6 months and known each other about 8.

Although I have to be reasonable and logical about it.

I do not want to rush anything and not be able to fulfill what I was asked to do.

I am 17 and he is 21.
He should be in a serious relationship and considering settling down.

I should be preparing for life on my own and having some fun.

I am in high school still while he is in the Corps pursing his career already.

I am still planning my life and what I want to do and where I want to go.

I have not any life experience of my own, because I have always had my parents leading my way or giving me that push.

I have always had someone who cared and supported me in everything and wanted to be in my life as my boyfriend.

I have to learn to live on my own and handle things on my own.

I need to experience the world so I can be a better wife.

I want to be the wife I can be, I want to make him happy.

I don't want to fail at that job.

I do not feel ready to be engaged or married.
I think it is best for both of us that I called off the engagement.

I do love him, just everything is so hard right now.

I can't handle all the stress.

I want was it best for us and I know this is what is best for me.

Its killing him and I do feel bad for that cause he doesn't understand that I am not ready.

I just don't want to hurt him worse.

Am I in the wrong or am I being reasonable and logical?

Homesick Marine --

My poor baby is home sick and I feel horrible.

I am getting sick. : / I have no clue how to help him.

Being sick is not making it any better considering I just want to sleep and not talk to him alot on webcam.

Yesterday was a real debbie downer. I didn't like it and neither did he.

I just don't like to see him upset or down.

I need some good advice on how to make him feel better and not so home sick.

HELP?!?!?!?!?!?!

the bf agin

well Jessicaand i have been going out for the past 6 months and i love this girl with all of my heart and i want her and everyone els to know about it so on the weekend of the 28 Mar 2010 i had to go home but i didnt have the money to fly so i went on a bus and she texted me the hole time i was on thataa fucking bus and she made the time fly and i coudlnt wait to see her so thro out that week we saw each other every day but 1 but we talked on the phone that hole night the we went to see Shes out of my league i have all ready seen it but i thout she was out of my league so i thout it wouold be a good moive so we went and saw it and we met each other there and i remwber seeing her comeing up the stars and seeing her long legs and then shes looking around for me and i walked around like it wasnt me then came up behind her and said something so then that hole time in the mive i was beating myslef up about trying to hold her hand put my arm around her all of that stuff and then after the moive was over we went to leave and i was trying to bring my slef to give her a kiss goodnight so we talked some more and i put her lil ass jacket on and sh took a pic of me and then after that we kissed good night and we left so then on 4-1 her and Haylee got me really good and i didnt know that both of them were coming i had a rose not 2 and i didnt even think it was the 1st and she was late by alot so i am sitting there with my rose and ppl are trying to talk to me and then i see her agin and all of the ppl just dissaperd and i just saw her and i walked to the atm and then i saw her friend . . . . then on 4-3 i asked her mom Jody if i could stay the night and she said yes and i slep in her bed and she slep with her mom then i went and woke her up that morrning and she mad me some food adn then see walked me to the truck and gave me a kiss good by and gave me back my ipod and i told her i love love you and she didnt say anything and i asked her to be my girlfriend andshe said yes and i was running late for my flight so i went home and had my dad take me to iah and i missed my flight and i was there for a nether 2 hours and she was trying to talk her mom in to coming and seeing me be for i left but she wasnt able to come and then i i was on my way back to cali : / with her on my mind and i was going throu my ipod and she left me a msg on my notes that said i love you and i still have that and that was our first week togather and baby i love you so much and i cant to count the years go by you mean so much to me i love you Jessica Leigh King

Bleh : /

I wanted to do a post today about how much I love my Marine, our relationship together, and it being 6 months of USMC love.

Well bleh on that idea. . . . .

Instead I woke up on our 6 month anniversary not being able to breath, sick to my stomache, throat felt like something was permanently caught in it, and a migrane. What a wonderful way to spend my monday

IN MISERY!!!

Now I know that tonight will not go as planned with my man because I can't get rid of this migrane or my throat issue.

I love you Edward, Happy 6 months to you. I hope your day is way better than mine.

See if you have been tagged --

I have been out of the blogging world for far too long! I am going to jump right back into it. : )

Since I have been gone a game of what seems to be like Question Tag has been going around. Needless to say I have been tagged by a wonderful lady who is married to a Marine and goes by the name of Kaylee over at Devil Dog Darling. She has an amazing blog, last I read her anniversary is coming up and she needs some help, so why don't you head one over there and see if you can't give her a hand.

Since I have been gone I have no background on this game of tag, all I know is: I have been tagged, I am too answer the 8 questions Kaylee has boiled up, and then find 8 fellow bloggers to pass 8 of my own questions on too.

Kaylee's 8 questions :

1. What is your favorite thing about being a woman?
I would say that my favorite thing about being a woman is getting up in the morning and picking out an outfit to wear, doing my hair, and putting on make-up to make myself feel pretty. I love being about to look pretty and primping myself. Oh, another thing, I know it hasn't happened yet and won't for a while, but concieving a child. The mircle of life I hold.

2. Do you like rainy days or snowy wintery days more?
I would have to choose snowy wintery days. Building a fire in the fire place, moving the couch closer to it, cuddling up on the couch in blankets, sipping on hot chocolate and watching a movie with my love. Gosh, Christmas needs to hurry up. : )

3. What's your favorite book and why?
My favorite book would have to be "Where the Red Fern Grows". It was a very sad book and had many lesson in it. It showed the true connection between a boy and a dog.

4. What is the first thing you notice about people when you meet them?
I would say their smile and eyes. Those are the first to things I pick up on. You can tell alot about people from their eyes and smiles.

5. Would you rather take pictures or be in pictures?
I like taking pictures, but I love being in the pictures. I love to look back on a picture and knowing the whole story behind it and why I was in it.

6. If your could own a non-traditional pet, what would it be, any one in the world?
A zebra, I just imagine a zebra having a great personality. Just like the zebra from Madagascar. I saw a zebra at a county fair this past weekend, it smiled for me. I wish I got a picture of it.

7. Can you change a tire on your car? Have you ever?
I have never changed the tire on my car nor do I know how too. I did one time have a flat and a guy in the Army stopped and helped my mom and I. He was about to deploy.

8. If you could give anyone any gift in the world to whom would it go and what would it be?
I would give a child that was less fortunate than I the gift of hope and love. I would adopt a child and let them know what it is like to be loved unconditionally and have some one believe in them.

Kaylee you had some great questions, time to see if I can come up with 8 of my own.

1. If you could be any color crayon in the world what color would you choose and why?
2. What started your blog?
3. Which year of you life do you think was the best?
4. If you could change the name of your kid(s) *if you have any* what would it be and why? or if your could change the name of your pet?
5. What is your favorite disney character or your childs favorite one?
6. Do you prefer the city or country life?
7. What your favorite thing about fall?
8. Do you ever find your self secretly wanting to play your man's video games?

Now for the 8 lucky bloggers that get to answer my questions:

1. Nicole
2. Mrs. G.I. Joe
3. Cris
4. Mrs. Muffins
5. Amber
6. Mrs. Gambizzle
7. Lauren
8. Brandi
   

I am looking forward to reading the answers to my questions. Every one have a great night.

-- Future Mrs. James

Relationship Break *MUST READ* --

In my previous post, I stated I was on a break in my relationship with my Marine.

We were in a rut for about 3 weeks. It was really rough on me. I never thought it would have taken the toll on me that it did. I was stressed, so stressed. It caused me to be emotional, not sleep or eat right. I was loosing him it felt like and I was going crazy. I didn't want to loose him. I wanted to take a break to become a little less stressed and have some time to myself.

I told him I was going to go with out talking to him. I had to repeat it to myself. I continued to you talk to him the rest of the night. To my surprise I woke up the next morning telling myself over and over and over not to talk to him. I just couldn't do it. I broke and called him to wake him up for PT. We talked for a few minutes. Need less to say my feeling for him where entirely too strong for me to not talk to him. I love him too much to go with out talking to him. I did try and not talk to him for a night. I didn't sleep right at all. I can't stand my ground with him. I had to talk to him.

Things between us were very quite not much was said, not many laughs were shared. It was driving me crazy. He got one of his room mates to talk to me it gave me a wake up call. I finally realized what I needed to do. I fixed my priority list and made sure I was ok with everything. I then talked to him and had a conversation about everything going on. He understood.

After we talked and discussed everythign going on. We started to make progress in our relationship. We are back to normal finally after about 3 weeks. I came to realize that I love him and would do anything for him. My feelings for him are stronger than they are for any other of the guys in my past. I am so lucky to have found him. He is truly the man of my dreams.

To make this post even better Imma add this in.


BIG ANNOUNCEMENT: (drum roll please) I am now engaged to my Marine. We are one of the happiest couples. Right now, we don't want our families to know. We are waiting till after Easter to tell them. So now with out further adue, I will let you all know how he asked.

"Baby, I love you, you are my world. I want you to be my wife and the mother of our ...kids.... I love you Jessica Leigh King. I want you to be my wife, will you marry me? [] yes [] no".

My response: "☑ Yes, Edward, you know I will proudly be your fiance. I love you and no matter what I do I will never be able to prove it too you."

Him and I have made such great progress in our relationship. It has been like we were already engaged before, between our joint bank account and our house being remodeled for us. I am truly happy that he asked. I never wanted anything more than what he has offered to me.

This is nothing to be rushed. We both agreed to a long engagement of no earlier than a year and a half. I am happy for this, now instead of just jumping and running away from our problems I will now have to work at this relationship. I am excited to be taking this step forward.

I can't wait till he comes home as my Fiance instead of my boyfriend. I am so happy right now.

-- Soon to Be Mrs. James ♥

Reality Hits --

I have been out of the blogging world for about 4 weeks now. That is way too long, so I won't fill you with everything that has went on in that time frame. I will give you the shortest version as possible. I am hoping to getting around to doing a post for each thing I list (incentive to keep it short).

School
Being home alone
Break in the relationship with my Marine
Reality.

That is pretty much everything that has been going on. Now off to post about each individually.

I also I have dropped in and have been reading blogs occasionally, I will be completely honest. I do not plan to go back and read every blog I have missed, nor do I plan to comment on them.

the bf agin

This is the boyfriend agin and I just wanted to let yall know that I realy don’t know what is going on but I think we are going to be ok we are just going to have to work it out and talk about everything and I just wanted to let yall know and for the 1 who say I cant spell and what not I don’t care and thanks for the help fpr that other girl and we have been talking and I think we are getting better and her school is going good she talks to me about it a lil but not much I just wanted to let yall know and Jessica when you read this I love you with all my heart you are my world baby you mean so much to me