Tuesday, October 26, 2010

the exboyfriend and exfeinca or how ever you spell it

well were not togather any more and i wish there was something i could do about it but idk if me trying anything will help or not just thout yall would like to know

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Its like a Roller Coaster --

Lately with my Marine and I things have been like a roller coaster.
After he asked me to be his wife things got great amazing,
until I started thinking and getting stressed.
I thought long and hard, very long and hard about it.
I do love the him with everything I am.
I loved my life before I met him and even more after I met him.
It has helped me discover more about myself and the inner strength I have.
We have been together for 6 months and known each other about 8.
Although I have to be reasonable and logical about it.
I do not want to rush anything and not be able to fulfill what I was asked to do.
I am 17 and he is 21.
He should be in a serious relationship and considering settling down.
I should be preparing for life on my own and having some fun.
I am in high school still while he is in the Corps pursing his career already.
I am still planning my life and what I want to do and where I want to go.
I have not any life experience of my own, because I have always had my parents leading my way or giving me that push.
I have always had someone who cared and supported me in everything and wanted to be in my life as my boyfriend.
I have to learn to live on my own and handle things on my own.
I need to experience the world so I can be a better wife.
I want to be the wife I can be, I want to make him happy.
I don't want to fail at that job.
I do not feel ready to be engaged or married.
I think it is best for both of us that I called off the engagement.
I do love him, just everything is so hard right now.
I can't handle all the stress.
I want was it best for us and I know this is what is best for me.
Its killing him and I do feel bad for that cause he doesn't understand that I am not ready.
I just don't want to hurt him worse.
Am I in the wrong or am I being reasonable and logical?

Monday, October 11, 2010

Homesick Marine --

My poor baby is home sick and I feel horrible.
I am getting sick. : / I have no clue how to help him.
Being sick is not making it any better considering I just want to sleep and not talk to him alot on webcam.
Yesterday was a real debbie downer. I didn't like it and neither did he.
I just don't like to see him upset or down.
I need some good advice on how to make him feel better and not so home sick.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

the bf agin

well Jessicaand i have been going out for the past 6 months and i love this girl with all of my heart and i want her and everyone els to know about it so on the weekend of the 28 Mar 2010 i had to go home but i didnt have the money to fly so i went on a bus and she texted me the hole time i was on thataa fucking bus and she made the time fly and i coudlnt wait to see her so thro out that week we saw each other every day but 1 but we talked on the phone that hole night the we went to see Shes out of my league i have all ready seen it but i thout she was out of my league so i thout it wouold be a good moive so we went and saw it and we met each other there and i remwber seeing her comeing up the stars and seeing her long legs and then shes looking around for me and i walked around like it wasnt me then came up behind her and said something so then that hole time in the mive i was beating myslef up about trying to hold her hand put my arm around her all of that stuff and then after the moive was over we went to leave and i was trying to bring my slef to give her a kiss goodnight so we talked some more and i put her lil ass jacket on and sh took a pic of me and then after that we kissed good night and we left so then on 4-1 her and Haylee got me really good and i didnt know that both of them were coming i had a rose not 2 and i didnt even think it was the 1st and she was late by alot so i am sitting there with my rose and ppl are trying to talk to me and then i see her agin and all of the ppl just dissaperd and i just saw her and i walked to the atm and then i saw her friend . . . . then on 4-3 i asked her mom Jody if i could stay the night and she said yes and i slep in her bed and she slep with her mom then i went and woke her up that morrning and she mad me some food adn then see walked me to the truck and gave me a kiss good by and gave me back my ipod and i told her i love love you and she didnt say anything and i asked her to be my girlfriend andshe said yes and i was running late for my flight so i went home and had my dad take me to iah and i missed my flight and i was there for a nether 2 hours and she was trying to talk her mom in to coming and seeing me be for i left but she wasnt able to come and then i i was on my way back to cali : / with her on my mind and i was going throu my ipod and she left me a msg on my notes that said i love you and i still have that and that was our first week togather and baby i love you so much and i cant to count the years go by you mean so much to me i love you Jessica Leigh King

Monday, October 4, 2010

Bleh : /

I wanted to do a post today about how much I love my Marine, our relationship together, and it being 6 months of USMC love.

Well bleh on that idea. . . . .

Instead I woke up on our 6 month anniversary not being able to breath, sick to my stomache, throat felt like something was permanently caught in it, and a migrane. What a wonderful way to spend my monday


Now I know that tonight will not go as planned with my man because I can't get rid of this migrane or my throat issue.

I love you Edward, Happy 6 months to you. I hope your day is way better than mine.